NEW BLOG

My heart feels full as I announce that I am officially moving on from this blog and to the next chapter. There was a time when I felt like I would never heal. It seemed so impossible to process and filter through everything that I was going through. But, with this blog, I have documented my journey. And I am feeling everything right now when I tell you that I feel like it's time to move forward and leave these moments of anger, sadness, hatred, fear, loneliness, and resentment behind and open my heart up to new opportunities. New moments for me to feel anger, sadness, hatred, fear, loneliness, and resentment. Just because I am closing this chapter doesn't mean I will never get hurt again. It doesn't mean that I won't ever feel anger or sadness or loneliness. But what I leave behind is my past demons. The ones that told me I wasn't good enough, worthy enough. The ones that told me that I needed to stay small or keep quiet. And emerge into who I know I have always been but was afraid to be.

I have learned so much over the last two years. But the most important lesson I've learned is that in order to become your true self, you first have to unbecome all the things that you were told to be. All the things you were taught that made you feel like you had to be this cookie cutter version of what society thinks you should be, look like, act. It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life. There has been no journey more challenging to rewiring my brain to think differently, believe in myself, accept myself, and love myself. So, with that being said. I have started a new blog that I call UNBECOMING. The name sums up the last two years of what I've learned and what I hope to pass on and inspire others to do as well. Be their true selves.

To those who have followed so graciously and attentively, I thank you. This journey hasn't always been pretty. It hasn't always been positive or happy. It's been real and hurtful and scary. It's been lonely. But, mostly, it's been the best thing I ever did. And I am so thankful that I have these moments documented forever. So that you can see, for certain, that pain is a feeling that comes and goes just like all other feelings. It will pass. But you have to do the work. For me, that was writing. For you, who knows. But find it. Find what inspires you to put your past behind you and be able to live so presently and mindfully, that the only thing you know is the here and now. And the only thing to feel is excitement for what's to come. You may be knocked down several more times in your life. But you've made it through this. And if you can make it through this, you can make it through anything. But in order to do that, for me, I had to unbecome everything I thought I was and listen to my soul to figure out who I really am.

The link will take you to my new blog. Thank you for your dedication. Nothing means more to me in the world then when someone takes the time to read what I've written. Please, follow along with me as I try to figure out this crazy thing called life:

https://nellyyrrose.wixsite.com/unbecoming